no snow... :(

:( so it didn't snow...instead it is raining and extremely windy. arrrg. i like the rain, but only if i am at my house and there is a great thunder storm out. oh well, it will still be a good day regardless. they say it will be like this all week, i just hope that it wont continue into the weekend. i will be going surfing on saturday no matter what, and i dont really want to go in the wind and rain you know.

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.....

i dont get the weather here in virginia. last weekend it was so nice out and tonight it is supposed to snow. well you know me..i am all about the snow, bring it on i say. i am beginning to think i am the only one that feels that way though. here, if they even think it is going to snow they get all jumpy...then if they actually get the snow, regardless of how much it is, they seriously shut down the city it seems...no school, possibly no work, the whole nine yards, and the driving is horrible, crashes up the wazoo. they dont believe me when i tell them that up north people get 2-3 feet of snow and we are still going to school, we are still going to work, and we can still drive. i think that sometimes we can drive better in snow than they can in sunshine. :) southerners....i just dont get them. i love them, but i dont understand them. anyway, i hope it snows tonight, besides the fact that i would love to be off work tomorrow, i just simply love snow. i am the one who after a little bit of snow comes, i am out there trying to scoop a snowball and twirling around with my tounge sticking out dancing in the midst of falling snowflakes, yes that is me. i am the crazy one with no jacket or mittens, while everyone surrounding me is in gloves, scarfs, coats and hats. i love it....so God, if you can...please let it snow.

an uneventful weekend?.....

so i have made a resolution, not exactly a new years resolution, but a resolution nonetheless. i am going to try to stay committed with my blog. i am not saying every day, but more than i have been thats for sure.

so i had a three day weekend this past weekend and i ended up doing absolutely nothing. sad i know right. me and my friend andrew were going to go to dc, but in the end we decided that it would be too cold. ok he thought it would be too cold, my wisconsin blood does not get cold very often. so instead i stayed at home and did nothing. well i did clean my house and finish a puzzle for my mom but that was it. overall, it was a very unaccomplishing few days and yet i dont regret them at all. i needed that, i needed those three days to just rest and relax and do...well nothing.

i was also able to really focus on God during the past few days which is something i needed a lot more than the rest. i have been struggling with a lot lately and basically in a nutshell, i have been trying to solve them and work out my problems by myself....without God. you know how it is, when you say you give him everything, but yet you still hold on to a few things for yourself. it is like i am saying "you can have these God, but i can handle this one alone...i dont need your help on this, i got it." well i have been doing that with a few things in my life and i just cant do it anymore. i had made a little god it seemed and constantly focusing on that..how can i deal with this, what will happen with this, how can i fix my life, etc...rather than turning to the only one who can solve my problems and get me through them, my father. so this weekend it happened, i am not sure how exactly, but my pride was shattered. i was completely humbled in Christ and came once again to my knees in forgiveness. and you know the wonderful thing is, he forgave me and took me back as i knew he would and always does, but of course i was too stubborn to come to him until i had no other option. why is that i dont know. i was too focused on myself and had my hands clenched to something that was never mine to begin with. i dont own anything in this world, nothing really belongs to me...my car, my love life, my money, my everything...it is all God's, it is his to give to me, and it is his to take it away. i forget that a lot and i dont know why. i am just glad that i have a loving and forgiving God i can run to when i do and that can pick me back up when i fall. i have a God that loves me just the same and will always be there no matter where i am and what i am doing in my life, he is there. he will never leave me and for that i am thankful.

so it seems after all i did not have an uneventful weekend, i had a wonderful weekend. i came back to my father like the prodigal son i am (well daughter, but you get the point) and he was there waiting for me with big open arms. i had a great weekend. thanks Jesus.

a new slate......

So i started a new blog today. I still have a blog named gahbahnzah gab, but for some reason i am not able to back get into it and post anything new. So today i finally started a new one, it still has the same name for the most part, Gahbahnzah’s Gab, but it is a completely new blog. it is a brand new slate, whole set of blank pages to be filled with my thoughts and ideas. It is a chance for me to start over from scratch.

And as i sit here and wonder where to begin on the new blog of mine, a thought comes to mind. My brand new slate is similar to the one Jesus gives us when we accept him into our heart. our past sins and life are washed away clean and we are given a new body, a new life in which to live for him. And this ultimate forgiveness is not just a one-time occurrence either, it happens daily. Our Lord is constantly forgiving us and wiping our slate clean. He is constantly thowing all of our past sins away and by his mercy and love he gives me another chance.

I don’t know about you, but i have been given more chances than i can ever begin to count, and i know that there will be many more to come. I take these chances for granted all the time. Instead of being thankful and grateful for what the Lord has given me, i complain to him that the things in my life are not going as i would have planned.

God still listens though, he still forgives me, and most of all he still loves me. For that i am grateful, and even though i might not say it as much as i ought to or think about it as often as i should, when i do, the love and grace of our Lord, Jesus Christ overwhelms me and fills my heart. I am humbled in his presence and as a child he embraces me in his always open, always present, and always loving arms. So now just as i started this new blog, i have started a new page in my life, the ever-changing new page that Christ so gracefully allows me. Thank you Lord for your forgiveness and your mercy, thank you for never giving up on me, and thank you for you unconditional love.